friday night freewrite

getting back into the habit of writing. actually pulled out my planner so i could scribble a bit wile i as thinking. saw some trailers tnonight... friends went to the movies and reaminded me i have to keep tsome tabs on the real world. just to understand my surroundings and context.

made a really great friend a few weeks aog. sometimes we hang out, or go for walks. talking is awesome and i think this is the first time i actually made a friend on my own. it wasn't someone knowing someone else. imagine that, the introvert is a social butterfly. HA! wheatever.

where did my itunes ogo? damn steraming radion station. bring back my blac.. classical music please! time to find a new statuyion.

should we go to thje pspa for my fbirthday? not sure. really don't want to drag our asses over ther. sorry, very opotty mouth post. think i like posting beter from my laptop, but the mbile device canb e typed on anywhere!! _^________^

been listenin g to the last five yarars and draswing so many parallels. only i feel like th e faults o f boh partnnerrs was sfelt by me. it probably istn't fair, but i mjst do what i have to do tomorrow. if it means losing an apartment, hey.. i learned from thew best how to lose attachment.

Free write

Need to write, has been a long time since I heard wicked. It feels good to have something familiar. So many new things at once are frightening. Seems I can tyype slligtly better on a teo. Hahaha figures now the typos start.

Don't think this is as useful, I can't typr as fast as I think on a msall device. Too much at work. Have to claw my way out and drag my team to the light. Don't know why I have this feeling of being the only one that works I cnt imagine we woul d be working at all if no one was working, but why am I one of the few that srtess out?

Hope he's fee tonight. I'll need ..... Why oddo I feel I don't deserve someone to be there for me? I wasn't conditioned to thiink that way, at least not by past relationships. I have to be the strong one, alsways, to lead the pack. But what happens to a naturl leader that doesn't want to lead....

Breathe. Its a simplw concept, but so rarely done. Caught an attitude today because I don't know if certain eople realize how much we suffer. Attempts to help are nice, but we need some real-life solutions. Have grat ideas in calass, but that's just class.

I'm tired of this job. Everyone has an attitude, they don't need my help then. They can nastily go on aboout their business. Money is just not above happiness.

Sure, I say that now because I have it to live comfortably. Feel crushed with responsibilit and decisions..

At least I made a friend. Luch is almost over... Wish I had more time.